Meme Day 4

[jen_qoe]

Annnnd, today's meme post!

Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias

1 - crowds. I may have undersold how anxious the noisy crowds in small rooms thing makes me in the last meme post.
2 - related to, having to eat around those big round 10 person table things (and also massive group meals in restaurants).  So con banquets and the Heathrow Rennaisance hotel pile-em-in to eat breakfast are trying.  It's a bit like the torment that was school dinners, with all the angst of finding a place to sit, then awkwardly attempting to eat among strangers. It's probably not so bad if you're wandering around with a buddy to sit next to and talk to, but doing cons on my own means plonking my socially inept self down next to nice but unknown people who I'd probably like talking to if I could only work out what to say. Or not be so anxious about butting in on other people's conversations, because how do you know if it's welcome or not?  I never know!  And that's before you get to the basic food judgeyness. I have weird tastes. I'm picky and there's not much that I actually like eating - at least on the standard menus in public venues.  This gets commented on by everybody all the time.
3 - also related, new people. Strange people wot I don't know, or people I sorta know from the internet, doesn't matter.  I do not understand this making conversation with people thing at all.  I like it when nice people start talking despite my general inability to give any sort or answer, especially if they keep going and ignore the deer in headlights look that inevitably follows when someone asks me things.  Chatty new people are lovely though.
4 - also related, being asked things live and in person.  My brain freezes up, and what I know vanishes completely.  Also I tend to have slow reactions so don't usually think of answers until at least 10 minutes after the conversation has moved on.
5 - driving in town/city centres. Motorways and country lanes and suburby places I'm fine with, there's plenty of time to work things out and it's not terrible if you take a wrong turn.  Town/city centres are a freaking nightmare and far to fast.  Again with the slow reactions.
6 - London. It always tries to kill me. Apparently I don't cross the road fast enough.  (And yet again with the slow reactions!)
7 - posting on the internet.  Partly the hair trigger mob dropping on your head thing, which happens terrifyingly fast these days, and partly having had people on twitter and facebook sniping and picking at random comments both online and IRL.  Tumblr's much more relaxing, though I rarely do more than reblogs there.  Mind I've only got 10 followers there so no-one knows I exist, which is also nice.  :-)


The meme post things:
Day 1 - Ten random facts about yourself
Day 2 - Nine things you do everyday
Day 3 - Eight things that annoy you
Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias
Day 5 - Six songs that you’re addicted to
Day 6 - Five things you can’t live without
Day 7 - Four memories you won’t forget
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
Day 9 - Two things you wish you could do
Day 10 - One person you can trust

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/la_marquise_de_/]

London is a death trap!
And I would be delighted if you came and sat with me. :-) I avoid those events for the same reason.

[jen-qoe.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks! x